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OMG. Lemony Snicket's "A Series of Unfortunate Events" book 1 is being made into a movie that's comming out in December! omg I love those books! I've read like 6 or 7 and they're awesome! I'm not sure how I feel about Jim Carey being cast as the Evil Count Olaf though...

this movie series could rival Harry Potter's!

IT F*CKING PISSES ME OFF WHEN MY DAD ACTS LIKE HE HAS A F*CKING STICK UP HIS A$$ SO FAR THAT THE SH*T IS STREAMING FROM HIS MOUTH. HE AND MY MOM AND THE WHOLE F*CKING WORLD SHOULD JUST SHUT THE H*LL UP ABOUT CLUTTER, ORGANIZATION, AND LOW F*CKING CARBS. LEAVE ME THE H*LL ALONE AND GO ABOUT YOUR WISHING AND HOPING THAT SOMEDAY OUR LIVES WILL BE FREE OF F*CKING CLUTTER COS IT'S NEVER GONNA HAPPEN BECAUSE WE'RE ALL BIG FAT PACKRATS WHO'LL NEVER CHANGE.

AND ANOTHER THING

I HATE it when people call other people FAGS or FAGGOTS because they're trying to insult someone because OF THEIR SEXUAL PREFERENCE which absof*ckinglutely UNACCEPTABLE. THE TERM FAG MEANS 'CIGARETTE' AND 'FAGGOT' MEANS A PILE OF BURNING WOOD AND STICKS, NOT SOMEONE WHO IS HOMOSEXUAL OR SOMEONE YOU BELIEVE TO BE DUMB OR STUPID OR ANYTHING ELSE. don't use GAY as an adjective to describe someone either, UNLESS YOU ABSOF*CKINGLUTLY MEAN THAT PERSON IS HAPPY OR USE IT TO NON-OFFENSIVELY DESCRIBE SOMEONE WHOM YOU KNOW TO BE HOMOSEXUAL, which most of the time you KNOW is not the f*cking case. DO NOT USE 'GAY' AS AN INSULT TO A PERSON PLACE OR THING.

now, some wisea$$ might want to argue my point or purposely use the above against me. IF YOU DO BE CAREFUL BECAUSE I'M PRETTY F*CKING TOUCHY ABOUT THIS AS YOU CAN SEE.

*phew*

that felt good (o:

hanging out at laura's house right now, kristen and I spending the night...

today laura's friend jon (20), charlie(21), and aaron (18) picked us up in jon's car and we went to the MOA to hang out. it was really boring though, we just walked around for about half an hour and then they drove us back to laura's. aaron wanted to go back to his house to get something to eat, but since laura's mom thought we were just going to the mall and taking the 7:20 bus home, we had to be home by 8.
we got invited to charlie's 21st birthday party this (monday) evening, but I doubt we'll be able to go. drinking at some guy's house with him and a couple other guys doesn't sound like my idea of...safe.

I mean, it's exactly the kind of icky situations you see on those tv melodramas, the underaged girls going to a guy's house to party and drink and have sex and lose thier dignity. while part of me would love to experience that...to be there, just hanging out, drinking, partying, making out with whoever's convienient enough...I just can't see myself in that sort of situation. maybe it's cos I'm only 15 now and haven't been to any real high school parties...I dunno. I feel to morally grounded to try any of that just yet.

but...we might get to hang out with jon and drive around with him...and he seems like the nice, trustworthy, responsible one (and he's really cute! ^_^)

other than that I have to babysit today and be home by 10am this morning...guess I better get some sleep (even though I won't)

who knows what the day will bring ( :

New Contact section up as you can see...'Dad', IM me if you'd like to talk <_<

a disclaimer!
I don't own any of the toys in the toybox, they were made by other people. At every site I was instructed to link the pixels back to the creators, but seeing as I got em from a bunch of sites, I can't put links for all of them, cos I'm to lazy. take em if you want, I don't care much (:
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ok so omg I'm so bored.

I got the job !
hooray!
I got a letter yesterday informing me that I was accepted for the student position at the library. I'll most likely start the week after I get back from D.C.

I hope you lovely readers like my new layout ^_^
isn't it adorble?
now that the tagboard is back up I want to see some comments once in awhile...

blegh. my arm hurts from a tetnus shot yesterday.
only 10 days till D.C.!

I keep having nightmares that I'll forget to pack something important or I'll wait untill the last minute to pack. and I keep having nightmares about what the last day of school could've been like [in a nightmare world].

I SMELL OF GAS AND CAMP FIRES.

mommy treats daddy like a child. daddy sometimes acts like one. she hassles him about his daily cigarette smoking, which he had quit for a few weeks, but has now resumed. i fear he will smoke more and more every day.

daddy's started drinking...more...
it used to be some social drinking, a couple beers with his brother or friends a couple times a year, if even. but. the past 2 weeks or so. he's gone through a six bottle pack. and some small liquor bottles. now, i know that's next to nothing compared to other people. but. it scares me. i'm worried it'll increase.

mommy says we may not be able to keep the house, and to cherish the days in it. that we may very well have to move to cinncinnati, to rent an appartment, then maybe in a couple years get another house. so i might have to change schools a couple more times. it really doesn't seem like a big deal to me. i feel like i could just flow along with all the changes that may come easily, like a kid on a waterslide. but, maybe that's just my way of cusioning myself and closing my eyes to what may be the inevitable. now, i know she'd be angry if she saw me telling so much about our personal lives to a public blog that could be read by anyone. but. i need a place to vent.

meesh.

my first job interview is today at 2 o'clock. it's for a book shelver position at the library, very tedious and boring work, but it'll be around comforting and familiar settings, and i'll be making money, so i figure to hope for the best.

my mom was looking at houses to rent in cinncinnati. that's a possible place we may move if my dad can't find a job here. all the jobs in denver have been filled up.

i got a pretty blue sundress the other day at the mall. i like it ever so much.

we went to duluth yesterday to go and look at lake superior. it was a long, boring 2 1/2 hour carride on the way up and back, but it was alright once we were there. we went to an aquarium, had lunch by the lake, and had dinner at a mexicain restaurant.

kassie's party was monday. i baked her muffins. the dog at some. not much else there.

off to my darling tetris...

[.::Duality::.]
(Slipknot)

(I push my fingers into my) Eyes
It’s the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it’s made of all the things I have to take
Jesus it never ends, it works its way inside
If the pain goes on

I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I waited as my time’s elapsed
Now all I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact
You cannot kill what you did not create
I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise
I guess I’ll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You’re left with me 'cause you left me no choice

I push my fingers into my eyes
It’s the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pains goes on
I'm not gonna make it!

Put me back together
Or separate the skin from bone
Leave me all the pieces
Then you can leave me alone
Tell me the reality
Is better than the dream
But I found out the hard way
Nothing is what it seems!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It’s the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it’s made of all the things I have to take
Jesus it never ends, it works its way inside
If the pain goes on
I'm not gonna make it!

All I've got
All I've gone is insane!
All I've got
All I've gone is insane!
All I've got!
All I've gone is insane!
All I've got!
All I've gone is insane!
All I've got
All I've gone is insane!
All I've got
All I've gone is insane!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It’s the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it’s made of all the things I have to take
Jesus it never ends, it works its way inside
If the pain goes on
I'm not gonna make it!

All I've got
All I've gone is insane!
All I've got
All I've gone is insane!
All I've got!
All I've gone is insane!
All I've got!
All I've gone is insane!
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THAT FXCKING LITTLE SHXT KEEPS PISSING THE FXCK OUT OF ME AND I'M SO MAD AT HIM I CAN HARDLY STAND IT. SPOILED LITTLE SHXT GETS TO DO WHATEVER THE FXCK HE WANTS WITH ALMOST NO LIMITS OR BOUNDARIES, THE FXCKING LITTLE ARROGANT SHXTHEAD.
AND HE SMELLS LIKE SHXT.

daddy got laid off.
faint chance of us moving to denver[colorado] if there's still this really good job offer there that was available a year or so ago. it's exactly like his current[wll, i guess, previous, now] job, which he says is the best he's ever had.

i'm sure they'll figure something out though. i don't much feel like being uprooted a 3rd time.

stay tuned for updates! l-;

Saturday, June 5

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